Just a... [ what did they call it over the app again? ] ... "memory".
[ anyway look that's not important, he doesn't really understand the context of the memory anyway so let's go back to this actually concerning thing!! ]
Do your senses turn on and off based on a pattern or schedule?
Those memories are from our past lives, supposedly. Doesn't really mean anything until you get a clearer image.
[Nanashi didn't have much of a problem with those memories until later down the line. Now he's a mess. But he's going to answer Jouhei's question to the best of his ability.]
It's not like that. Whenever I'm alone or scared I stop feeling things altogether. It should be okay as long as I'm with someone.
[ a nod. yeah, he kind of figures that he wouldn't understand anything until he gets more of the memories. he doesn't know if he'd like any of it though. no one seems to be having a good experience with them ]
Text me if you're alone.
[ jouhei doesn't mind running off from school now and then if it means that his cousin isn't feeling like a zombie. work might be a little difficult but he can figure something out. ah... thinking about work, about the vet clinic... ]
... would an animal help?
[ this is your opportunity to get a pet if you want one, dumpster child. ]
[ and if it's sick, you got your vet-in-training here. heck yeah, work perks. oh, also, now that nanashi is back... he wanted to talk about this when he was home and things are not that tense ]
Also, I cleaned your room while you were gone.
[ this would seem like a normal sentence but there's something lurking underneath it... there's also a stare, almost like a parent staring down at their child, knowing that they fucked up and is waiting. just waiting to ground the living shit out of them ]
[ jouhei is a neat freak, okay, he likes having things clean and while he respect nanashi's privacy not go into his room without knocking or snooping, it was gathering dust and he thought it would be a nice surprise for nanashi to come back to. who doesn't like clean rooms? apparently teenagers hiding a ton of illegal weapons??? dude, c'mon, you know what their family background is... ]
Explain.
[ doesn't even answer nanashi's question directly with a yes or no ]
[ jouhei goes quiet for a bit, thinking. he doesn't really like having weapons in the house, both from the fact that the two are them are trying to separate themselves from their family back in japan and that it seems rather unsafe to keep guns in the house. on the other hand, recolle has been getting more and more dangerous. back in august, he thought all those monsters around the city were normal but now that he's on the network, he realizes that was definitely anything but normal. it may be a good idea not to completely get rid of them. hm. ]
... I'll hold onto them but keep one with you, in case Recolle becomes dangerous again.
[ not that he knows about nanashi's demons or whatnot ]
[ he shakes his head as he heads over to the kitchen. he'll grab his apron and put it on, going to the fridge afterwards to grab some things that he can make ]
Just relax. I'll make your favourite.
[ look, this is what happens when you're at home. jouhei will spoil you and give you good food like fish and soup but then he pauses all of a sudden and reaches into his pocket. he pulls out his old nokia phone and holds it out to nanashi ]
... can you add yourself to "speed dial"? I don't know how.
[ so nanashi doesn't have to feel super useless while he sits around but also because haha jouhei and technology... ]
Really? You're the best! [Nanashi gets up and jumps like an excited three year old. Okay, he'll go help Jouhei and poke around on his phone. It takes about two minutes for Nanashi to finish up.]
Just hit this button and it's good to go. Is that all you need?
[This is Jouhei and technology. There could be more things that need fixing for all he knows.]
[ wtf nanashi is cute but thank you, little cousin, for doing that for him. he nods in thanks and takes back the phone, sliding it in his pocket while cooking. honestly, the meal should be done soon, it doesn't take that long to make miso soup and fry fish. ]
Show me how you did that later. It didn't come with a manual.
[ because he fucking bought this phone for 50cents at goodwill's bargain bin. it's a miracle it even works ]
[ he kind of gives a half-nod half-shrug in response. it's easy enough to understand but he probably would forget how to do it later. he didn't particularly grow up with a lot of technology, asides from farm equipment, so this isn't something he can grasp very easily, but he appreciates nanashi's help in the meanwhile ]
Thank you.
[ he will probably ask nanashi again later but anyway, still cooking! he will probably finish in a few tags later blah blah blah let's change the subject because he wants to know about this... ]
[Why does Jouhei keep on asking these simple yet difficult questions? Nanashi's not gonna hide anything from his cousin after coming this far. He takes in a deep breath and tries to CALM.]
I did a lot of things? I went to go look for some answers and found some.
[ because he needs to KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. also he nods because he understands having to find answers on your own. it's kind of a rite of passage, isn't it? ]
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I didn't wanna tell you something was wrong with me. It's the stupid app's fault.
[ Nanashi's worried about Jouhei because he's using Retrospec too. Nothing good can come out of that.]
Did anything strange happen to you yet, Jouhei?
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Just a... [ what did they call it over the app again? ] ... "memory".
[ anyway look that's not important, he doesn't really understand the context of the memory anyway so let's go back to this actually concerning thing!! ]
Do your senses turn on and off based on a pattern or schedule?
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[Nanashi didn't have much of a problem with those memories until later down the line. Now he's a mess. But he's going to answer Jouhei's question to the best of his ability.]
It's not like that. Whenever I'm alone or scared I stop feeling things altogether. It should be okay as long as I'm with someone.
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Text me if you're alone.
[ jouhei doesn't mind running off from school now and then if it means that his cousin isn't feeling like a zombie. work might be a little difficult but he can figure something out. ah... thinking about work, about the vet clinic... ]
... would an animal help?
[ this is your opportunity to get a pet if you want one, dumpster child. ]
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[He thinks about this for a moment. The animals at the dog sanctuary made him feel less lonely and secure. It might actually help.]
It would. Can we get a cat?
[Is he asking for too much???? Jouhei works at the vet clinic so it's probably okay... ]
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We'll go to the shelter and look. Will a cat be enough?
[ cats are honestly easy enough animals that nanashi can get two or ten like souji has because, you know, ten is a good number ]
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[It'll be a good thing for both of them. ]
I won't feel too lonely that way. You're good with animals too, Jouhei.
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[ and if it's sick, you got your vet-in-training here. heck yeah, work perks. oh, also, now that nanashi is back... he wanted to talk about this when he was home and things are not that tense ]
Also, I cleaned your room while you were gone.
[ this would seem like a normal sentence but there's something lurking underneath it... there's also a stare, almost like a parent staring down at their child, knowing that they fucked up and is waiting. just waiting to ground the living shit out of them ]
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You didn't have to do that.
[NO REALLY.]
Did you find my secret? [The guns...]
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[ jouhei is a neat freak, okay, he likes having things clean and while he respect nanashi's privacy not go into his room without knocking or snooping, it was gathering dust and he thought it would be a nice surprise for nanashi to come back to. who doesn't like clean rooms? apparently teenagers hiding a ton of illegal weapons??? dude, c'mon, you know what their family background is... ]
Explain.
[ doesn't even answer nanashi's question directly with a yes or no ]
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[HE COULD HAVE GOTTEN RID OF IT...but no he hid them in his room. Smart child.]
Sorry, do you wanna hold onto it for now? I have no use for those things either. Shit.
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... I'll hold onto them but keep one with you, in case Recolle becomes dangerous again.
[ not that he knows about nanashi's demons or whatnot ]
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[See how fast he breaks that promise--- hey, he can try. There's no harm in that.]
When I get in trouble I'll ask for you or one of my friends.
[That's better than getting off into trouble and not being able to handle it at all. Jouhei's wiser than Nanashi in most ways. He's reliable.]
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[ look, maybe he was a little hurt that nanashi decided to fuck off. rely on him too, child, he's agreed out of his own will to take care of you ]
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[Let's be real here, Nanashi's always weird. He just got a little self conscious about it. Welp.]
I think I can face people again so I won't run off again.
[He'll stay here unless Jouhei kicks him out for some reason.]
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No matter what, though, you'll still be family to me.
[ even if you're gross or weird, jouhei will care for u. the other family back in japan though? nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. anyWAY ]
Sit down. I'll prepare dinner.
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[ That might actually happen because he has no control over his summoning powers. Hopefully Jouhei won't mind having extra company??? RIP. ]
What are you going to prepare? Do you need help?
[ He doesn't want to let Jouhei do all the work!]
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Just relax. I'll make your favourite.
[ look, this is what happens when you're at home. jouhei will spoil you and give you good food like fish and soup but then he pauses all of a sudden and reaches into his pocket. he pulls out his old nokia phone and holds it out to nanashi ]
... can you add yourself to "speed dial"? I don't know how.
[ so nanashi doesn't have to feel super useless while he sits around but also because haha jouhei and technology... ]
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Just hit this button and it's good to go. Is that all you need?
[This is Jouhei and technology. There could be more things that need fixing for all he knows.]
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Show me how you did that later. It didn't come with a manual.
[ because he fucking bought this phone for 50cents at goodwill's bargain bin. it's a miracle it even works ]
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Was that easy to understand? You get used to doing it so it won't be hard for you later.
[Practice using your phone, Jouhei.]
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Thank you.
[ he will probably ask nanashi again later but anyway, still cooking! he will probably finish in a few tags later blah blah blah let's change the subject because he wants to know about this... ]
What did you do while you were gone?
[ did you get into trouble ]
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I did a lot of things? I went to go look for some answers and found some.
[This is such a vague response...]
Sorry, I had to do it alone.
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Did you run into trouble?
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A bunch of strangers found me sleeping outside one day...I was so tired, Jouhei.
[This child slept outside like a hobo. That's just asking for trouble,but thankfully he didn't get into too much of it.]
I find it hard to sleep properly at night. Are you ever like that?
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